Joy Unspeakable!! by A.P.

 Life has been and is being transformed!

This whole season has been one of God going deeper.

In my husband, Jerome, in our kids–and it is continuing.

My husband has been fighting for his life–and I’ve been fighting for it as well.

Last fall, Jerome had a strange episode in his body on the side of the road on a dark, rainy night. He called me, and the kids and I prayed for him. God healed him instantly!! 💕

A few nights later, he was feeling strange again. So we gathered as a family to pray for healing and stand against the enemy.

God poured out on us in a powerful, powerful way!! He gave us a new heart that night.

The earthly, family birthright done away with, and the inheritance of love, care, compassion, and softness sprung forth new!

A few nights ago, he was under attack again. We talked about going to the ER.

But when we sought the Lord’s guidance in it, God didn’t give us a release to go to that. Instead, we had to pray to be delivered from fear.

I wanted to take him to the best ER I know right now: fellow believers who could pray with us.

In the midst of all this, the Lord was dealing with me about my limitations.

He showed me that I am not able to fully access what God wants to release in me because I need baptized in the Holy Spirit.

Reading through Acts, everyone who believed God was limited in confidence and boldness until they received the Baptism of the Spirit. From then on, the disciples had great rejoicing, boldness, confidence and signs and wonders.

I have been devouring this book over and over and weeping as I see the lack in my own life.

The following morning we did go to meet up with fellow believers.

After such a rough night, we were indeed broken and in need. Jerome received ministry right away and received strength, energy, and nourishment, and even got to do some work there to help out.

Those of us in pursuit of music practiced a lot together. It was so, so wonderful to finally get to spend some time with certain believers!

As we all talked together, God began to touch on some of the very things I have been pondering and seeking for. I told the Lord I am ready for the Baptism. God showed me what it meant, and what that Baptism would require.

The end of my anger, the end of my fear, the end of my self-will, the end of my resistance to God…giving it ALL.

I began to weep and weep. Then a fellow believer began to pray for me, and I felt my prayer deepen to give it ALL.

Then it changed, and joy unspeakable filled me!!!

Clarity, thankfulness, new tongues, peace, stillness, and electricity tingling through my body! This went on and on! I lost track of all time!

I could hear others being touched as well. Then someone prayed for Jerome, and like a flash, I knew!

My husband, who had been so affected by his dad dying years ago–he was not Fatherless!!!

I was on my feet, his hands in mine in an instant, declaring this beautiful revelation!

We stood together with hands entwined overhead as God filled him full to overflowing.

In my heart, I saw a vision of a door open above his head, and beams, even rivers of light flowing into him, filling Jerome from his toes all the way up till it was bubbling out of his head.

We stood there swaying in the aftermath of God’s outpouring as some of the sisters in Christ sang a beautiful song!!!

Since then, I have so much joy!

So much hunger for the Lord, so much love for being in prayer and song and the word and worship and with my family!

I have also been earnestly seeking for how to give this to others! This isn't just for me, but to be released to anyone and everyone in need! 💕💕💕

I’ve wept tears of amazement to watch my kids hunger, desire God and change!

To see them soften towards each other. To see them laying hands on their dad, Jerome, and ministering to him when he is in need.

Watching joy and peace take the place of frustration and anxiety is joy unspeakable! 💕