The Lord keeps speaking to me about how good it is to be in need.
Our need of Him–our seeking because of that need–causes the river of life to flow. So blessed to be in constant need!!
When we do, we not only get to be partakers of His divine nature and know Him. Oh, no. Then we also get to spread that life to others in our life that they may be filled and refreshed and give to others.
I saw this in action one day. God led me to a sermon on YouTube about how God is the God who is more than enough! I was needing more and had listened to it while working. God spoke to me: it’s something others needed.
A couple days later, there was a group of us believers gathered. God stirred me about sharing that sermon I heard.I played it for everyone, and before long, the people were being stirred by the Lord.
I felt it filling me till I had too much energy to contain. My friend, Roger, and I were shouting and singing, praising God together. Then others started praying for their needs and others. Soon, everyone was in unity in the presence of God.
Then others believers came to join us, and added even more.
A peace greater than I had ever known washed over me and filled the next day with such freedom!
But I saw something–because I responded to my need for more and everyone else did as well, it gave the Lord access. The blood, the fellowship, of the Body of Christ moving. Flowing and moving, giving life to all the parts of the Body.
God is waking me up to how we need that fellowship every day.
So–what prevents this glorious manifestation coming forth in each of our lives all the time? I believe it's not enough to just have the knowledge of it.
Sure, our need of God is ever-present.
But to go deeper, each of us has our own perception of our need. All different levels and different interpretations.
God takes us through seasons of life to reveal our need of more and change us. Things in our life that hinder us in being able to freely give, express, and receive. Going all the way back to being kids.
Everyone has many places where they received/believed a lie. That lie got implanted in our reality, so even when they hear about a new land, or a new way God has for them, they can't fully enter in or practice it because of those things.
One day, a group of us were out working on a log home. The supervisor noticed a gouge in one of the logs.
He asked me about it, and–before I even knew what he was talking about, I had familiar feelings of "oh I messed up again" wanting to rush in.
But since God has been taking me on a journey of learning confidence and overcoming those things, I saw the door out of there.
That mental and spiritual door out of that insecurity was this:
I have a choice.
I don't just have to accept that dread and insecurity. I don’t have to. I can stay free of it!
That insecurity was a generational bondage that I watched plague my dad and his father before him.
So I chose freedom instead.
Without that insecurity or fear clouding my vision, I had a chance to really look at that awful gouge in the log. Then I was able to see the reality. That gouge had nothing to do with me–I had nothing to do with it!
All that insecurity and fear wasn’t even real!
We have a lot of those moments in our lives, though. Generational bondages and trauma from past hurts. They block us from seeing what is real.
God brings these things up in our lives to set us free of them, but we have to let God do that.
So we can live a life of constant glory to glory! Not just occasional touches of God. To be wholehearted.
To be able to receive God’s love fully. That will cause change as He reveals himself. And free us to say as Paul said:
“...I count all things but loss for the excellency of the knowledge of Christ Jesus my Lord: for whom I have suffered the loss of all things, and do count them but dung, that I may win Christ.” (Phillipians 3:8-10)
