Joy Unspeakable!! by A.P.

 Life has been and is being transformed!

This whole season has been one of God going deeper.

In my husband, Jerome, in our kids–and it is continuing.

My husband has been fighting for his life–and I’ve been fighting for it as well.

Last fall, Jerome had a strange episode in his body on the side of the road on a dark, rainy night. He called me, and the kids and I prayed for him. God healed him instantly!! 💕

A few nights later, he was feeling strange again. So we gathered as a family to pray for healing and stand against the enemy.

God poured out on us in a powerful, powerful way!! He gave us a new heart that night.

The earthly, family birthright done away with, and the inheritance of love, care, compassion, and softness sprung forth new!

A few nights ago, he was under attack again. We talked about going to the ER.

But when we sought the Lord’s guidance in it, God didn’t give us a release to go to that. Instead, we had to pray to be delivered from fear.

I wanted to take him to the best ER I know right now: fellow believers who could pray with us.

In the midst of all this, the Lord was dealing with me about my limitations.

He showed me that I am not able to fully access what God wants to release in me because I need baptized in the Holy Spirit.

Reading through Acts, everyone who believed God was limited in confidence and boldness until they received the Baptism of the Spirit. From then on, the disciples had great rejoicing, boldness, confidence and signs and wonders.

I have been devouring this book over and over and weeping as I see the lack in my own life.

The following morning we did go to meet up with fellow believers.

After such a rough night, we were indeed broken and in need. Jerome received ministry right away and received strength, energy, and nourishment, and even got to do some work there to help out.

Those of us in pursuit of music practiced a lot together. It was so, so wonderful to finally get to spend some time with certain believers!

As we all talked together, God began to touch on some of the very things I have been pondering and seeking for. I told the Lord I am ready for the Baptism. God showed me what it meant, and what that Baptism would require.

The end of my anger, the end of my fear, the end of my self-will, the end of my resistance to God…giving it ALL.

I began to weep and weep. Then a fellow believer began to pray for me, and I felt my prayer deepen to give it ALL.

Then it changed, and joy unspeakable filled me!!!

Clarity, thankfulness, new tongues, peace, stillness, and electricity tingling through my body! This went on and on! I lost track of all time!

I could hear others being touched as well. Then someone prayed for Jerome, and like a flash, I knew!

My husband, who had been so affected by his dad dying years ago–he was not Fatherless!!!

I was on my feet, his hands in mine in an instant, declaring this beautiful revelation!

We stood together with hands entwined overhead as God filled him full to overflowing.

In my heart, I saw a vision of a door open above his head, and beams, even rivers of light flowing into him, filling Jerome from his toes all the way up till it was bubbling out of his head.

We stood there swaying in the aftermath of God’s outpouring as some of the sisters in Christ sang a beautiful song!!!

Since then, I have so much joy!

So much hunger for the Lord, so much love for being in prayer and song and the word and worship and with my family!

I have also been earnestly seeking for how to give this to others! This isn't just for me, but to be released to anyone and everyone in need! 💕💕💕

I’ve wept tears of amazement to watch my kids hunger, desire God and change!

To see them soften towards each other. To see them laying hands on their dad, Jerome, and ministering to him when he is in need.

Watching joy and peace take the place of frustration and anxiety is joy unspeakable! 💕

The Power of Miracle Love by Sally

Love–real love–is miraculous.

To love someone like Christ is way past most human’s ability.

I recently dreamed about the death of a loved one. In my dream, I walked up on my sister who had been smashed flat as a pancake. Her body was nothing but dried-out flesh.

As I stood at her side, I cried out to God in a loud voice for the answer on what to do.

“Lay on her and speak love over her,” God told me.

Suddenly, in my dream, I had a vision. In this vision, a room was filled with file boxes. They contained memories of a lifetime with my sister.

As I looked at the files, a hand was there flipping through the pages, ready to grab whatever was needed.

I knew instantly that the only memories she needed from me were the ones in which she and I had spoken truth to each other in love.

I pulled those files up.

I began reminding her of them. How blessed and thankful I was that I had every moment and every memory.

As I shared these memories, her ribs started forming a rib cage, and her heart started beating. Her body started to form, and, just as quickly, she rose from what appeared to be a nap!

She was made whole and new!

As I woke from the dream, God was speaking to me about forgiving others’ trespasses–as I have been forgiven.

The power I had inside of me was to give myself over to Love and let Love be what it is: It hopes all things, endures all things, believes all and doesn’t fail.

My love has always been conditional. I am seeing this more and more.

My heart yearns to know and manifest a love that only comes from being possessed by my Father in Heaven.

My desire is to be His that I may always have the ability to Love.

Suddenly, as quickly as God showed me this, as quickly as I asked for God to give me such Love, I felt Him deliver me.

I was filled with a Love for my sister as I have never known!

The Tree of the Knowledge of Good and Evil by A.P.

I have never fully understood the Tree of the Knowledge of Good and Evil. 

What was so bad about it?

The Tree of Knowledge feeds the soul with carnal, polluted information. The Tree of Life feeds the spirit with peace, joy, comfort and connection with God.

When you eat of the Tree of Knowledge, it causes you to separate from that Life of God, and your spirit dies. 

This is why God said to Adam and Eve: "The day you eat of the Tree of Knowledge, you will surely die."

When you deny your soul and eat of the Tree of Life, your spirit grows closer to God.

Everything–your vision–becomes clear, your heart sings and rejoices. You draw close to your Father. He is with you, you are comforted. There is no shame in our need and how we receive.

He shows us all we need to know.

In our most recent trial, we have been choosing to go to God to show us what we need to know. He has been revealing spirits in our lives to cast out, things to be repented of.

We draw close to Him in our need and frailty, and He draws close to us and sets us free. The physical body responds and symptoms change for the better. We are healed.

Then this revelation came this morning about the two trees.

This is what it means to me in our current situation:

Doctors will fill us with information, ideas, knowledge of this and that, things to do or not do.

Knowledge feels safe to the soul because then we will at least know what we are dealing with.

Yet, through knowledge, fear has an avenue to speak: “What if??”

Being filled with knowledge rather than the revelation of the Spirit of God, something in our spirits will stop seeking God’s wisdom. In that place we can separate a little from God. Not need Him so much anymore. Our hearts become a little dull.

Shame will cause us to hide from Him, and we die in our spirit man.

But if we continue to seek the heart of our Father and revelation of the Spirit of Life, we will continue in a continuous feast of Heaven. Every need supplied–continuous need and continuous response to our need.

I truly love how we have been drawing close to God! Unashamed, worthy to be with Him. I love the peace and joy. I love the revelation of what needs to go and what to receive next. I love the flow of life that is surging through me.

The choice is very, very simple: satisfy the soul with information, or surrender to the God who knows all things. 

This revelation has affected our journey of seeking healing for my husband, who has been in a life-threatening situation. We did choose to go see a doctor to ask some questions and maybe get some answers as to why my husband’s body is doing what it is.

But before we went, I had a subtle thought that morning.

“If you take the path of doctors, you will surely die”.

I didn’t know what to do with that.

Those words didn’t have the same sound as that still, small Voice that has been guiding is, but it also sounded so convincing.

But there was also fear when I heard it, which has not been there during this whole process.

Later, God clarified what those words were.

They were from the liar, trying to convince me to be in fear. We were not going to die.

But those evil things, the dark roots in our lives, were indeed dying.

DREAM

I was in my bed sleeping and woke up. (I truly thought I was awake!) 

Half of my face was completely numb and paralyzed, my speech was slurred, and I was quite concerned!

I was trying to tell my husband what was happening, but he wasn't really waking up.

So I got out of bed to try to walk it off. As I walked around the room I was stirred to declare Christ. So I began to clap my hands and stomp my feet saying:

"Jesus Christ is Lord of all, Jesus Christ is Lord of all..."

Little by little, feeling returned to my face, and I went back to bed.

When I actually did wake up, I was so glad it was just a dream!!!! ...or was it? 😁

Jesus Christ is Lord of all, Jesus Christ is Lord of all, Jesus Christ is Lord of all and I have been redeemed! 🎶🎶🎶

My song for the day, and the word of the Lord to defeat our enemies! 💕