Wednesday, May 13, 2026

The Wonderful Weight of a Whim

 “Where there is no vision, the people perish…” Proverbs 29:18.

“I have a dream…”

What a great opening line!

There’s a reason Martin Luther King was such an inspiring activist. He wasn’t focused on destroying racism. He had a vision for building something new.

I’ve been able to predict which Presidents would get elected in the last twenty years. From Obama to Trump, I listened. When I heard vision, I knew. That guy’s going to be in the Oval Office.

What’s your dream?

I’ll never forget seeing a Remax billboard:

“What moves you?”

Something that gets me is reading about men and women of yesteryear.

Miraculous healings, revivals that sweep an entire nation, men who have prayed significant world changes into existence.

Those true stories stir my imagination and fire up my heart.

I’m over there thinking: “okay, how did they get there? What did they do? What were the steps?”

And not just that. I mean, my girlfriend accuses me of always wanting the perfect kind of food.

I can still taste the incredible bolognese sauce in the lasagna I ate at a hotel restaurant in Grand Junction, CO, ten years ago.

But that’s me. What’s yours? What do you crave more of?

In some way or another, we all have that same yearning for “more”. God put that into our DNA; it’s a part of Who He is.

Imagination is a really underrated tool in the kingdom of God.

It’s easy to use it in the natural realm. For instance, I recently imagined a whole scenario with how I thought something would go. It was awful. People were yelling, throwing things.

None of it actually happened.

But people will imagine themselves right into sickness or calamity.

The Bible talks about “vain imaginations”. In other words, when you’re not using your imagination correctly, it’s being used in vain

But God gave us an imagination.

Our imagination is the birthplace of desire. We can imagine the things we desire of the Lord.

Guys, we are so loved, our desires, even our common, natural ones, matter to the Lord. It’s what causes God to move on our behalf.

Over and over again, people came to Jesus to impose their desires and needs on Jesus, and over and over again, Jesus was moved by them.

To blind Bartimaues, Jesus asked: “What do you want Me to do for you?” (Matthew 20:32)

To His first disciples: “What do you seek?” (John 1:38)

To the sick man at the pool: “Do you want to be made well?” (John 5:6)

To the Canaanite woman who would not take ‘no’ for an answer, Jesus said: “Let it be as you desire.” (Matthew 15:26)

Reader, do you want to be made well? What do you seek? What do you desire?

Of course, sometimes these desires had to be redirected.

The Pharisees wanted a sign He was the Son of God(because healing the blind, raising the dead, delivering a man from a devil, etc, wasn’t proof enough, apparently).

Or the mother of the sons of Zebedee desired that her sons be given places of honor in Heaven.

Instead, Jesus rebuked or explained why it wouldn’t work.

But none of these things would have moved Jesus if the desire wasn’t expressed.

God has plans for us as well. BIG plans.

How big are they?

SO big: we can’t even imagine them.

SO big: God has to get us to take us through this crazy school in life to prepare our hearts to walk in them.

And I catch my craziness fighting against these plans.

Over the winter, God moved me to a new season.

(God always has to change it up on me to keep me from getting too comfortable, from getting stagnant in my spiritual growth.)

Now, I felt I constantly had my toes stepped on. And this reaction in my heart kept coming up.

“Bug off. I’m fine. You’re not better than me.”

In other words: self-righteousness.

I knew God was deliberately allowing situations to come up so God could point it out to me.

“You see this ugly root of self-righteousness? I want it gone. Can you give it to Me?”

I mean: I knew better than to actually say it out loud. Most of the time, that is. But thinking it can be just as bad.

Over and over again, I felt that still, small Voice:

“Are you going to let Me have your precious self-justification in exchange for My perspective in this situation?”

It wasn’t easy.

Those words: “I”m just as good as you are!” were on the tip of my tongue.

But I finally swallowed them. I let it go. 


“God, what do You want to say here?” I wondered at last.


A few nights later, I realized what it was. These ones–attacking me! Harrassing me! Publically slandering me!--suddenly became real people. 


Suddenly, I saw them as God saw them. Everything changed.  Compassion took the place where pride had stood. God could finally get to me so that their hurts could break my heart. 

My sister told me of a dream she had about me.

Many were lost, disillusioned. I stood up and began to speak to them, sharing with them openly about my journey.

“I had never seen you that ‘free’,” my sister said.

She had never seen me so inhibited by my human bondages to be able to speak that clearly.

My real struggles and stories set the people free.

For the first time, I was able to act as a clear reflection so people could see God’s love and God’s joy for them, and it changed them.

“I believe everything you’re going through is for that,” my sister told me.

God has a dream about you as well, reader. He has a unique call and plan for you.

And He yearns to hear your desire.

More than you can ask or think, as Ephesians 3:20 says.

Come boldly to the throne room, to paraphrase Hebrews 4:16.

Behold the storehouses of Heaven, and dare to dream.



Thursday, May 7, 2026

Planting In the Garden of Life by A.P.

God met me today!


Two months ago, when it was time to begin planting seeds for the garden, I was so very hesitant.

I have gardened for many years.

It was very clear to me that, by starting those seeds, I was choosing a specific path. I was committing to showing up continuously for many months to reach and preserve the harvest.

We have a huge garden space. I was carefully counting the cost in time, effort, and commitment.

It was something I spent a lot of time pondering and praying for whether or not that was the path to take this summer.

Through that process, I realized several things.

Because of the abundance of last year’s garden, not only was there more than enough good food to feed my family.

Even more, I was able to take many boxes and bags of amazing, organic produce to share with others.

It satisfied something deep within me.

I found that I really LOVE being able to share this gift with others.

If I choose not to grow the garden this year, who might go hungry? Whom could I have fed?

The garden space we have has taken years to build to what it is today.

If I choose to not grow food in that space or maintain it, it will just return to what it was before. Full of grass and weeds.

The thought of that made me heartsick.

This garden–and what I have within me to grow food–is a gift from God.

If I let that go, what then? How could I fail to steward that gift?

So I decided to start the seeds.

As they have grown, I have noticed that they weren’t as vigorous as usual. There would be a few dead seedlings here or there.

I easily forgot to check them or water or adjust the heat or airflow on them.

Today I went to see how things were doing and was quite alarmed to see the condition of those plants!!

Many were dead. Many more looked sick and weak.

The situation was urgent!

They needed new soil and new pots right now!

I began to gather the supplies, feeling a bit frantic and behind.

Everything else needed to be put on hold for these seedlings.

I told everyone around me I needed help.

I was very thankful my sister came to help me out.

It was clear also that I

needed to take the extra step to sterilize all the pots and trays.

That’s in case there was some pathogen carried over from last year that could be causing the issues.

I sat down with a tray of sick plants in front of me and began the tedious process of repotting extremely tiny droopy plants.

At first, all I could see was sick, wilted plants.

How did we get here to this point?

Then it dawned on me: even though I moved forward with planting, my heart was still on the fence. I was not whole hearted in the growing process.

This caused me to cut corners and not pay attention, to miss the signs early on and not respond.

It is TIME to get off the fence. Either be all in or all out. I repented of being wishy-washy.

At first all I could see was sick plants and wondered if I should just cull them all and start over.

Then I heard God’s still, small voice:

"Where else are you going to learn to hear My Voice and do it but in all the aspects of your life? Your children, husband, garden, animals, household chores. Hear My voice and do what I say."

The sickness on the plants was an attack of the enemy.

I have exactly the same authority to rebuke it as when my husband was getting attacked earlier this year. I prayed and saw God heal him miraculously.

So, I rebuked the unhealth off those plants in Jesus’ name, and began to proclaim God’s will to give me healthy, vibrant, growth and harvest.



By the time they were all in their new pots with new soil, my perspective had changed. I chose to see them with new life, as healthy seedlings, ready to burst forth in growth.

And I am so thankful to have had my sister here to confirm it and help! 💕