Putting on the Full Armor, Pt. 6: The Feast by A.P.

 The only way to find what we are looking for is to focus.

Like: REALLY focus.

I’ve continued this spiritual battle for my husband’s health, who has been in a life-threatening situation.

A strong desire to see the things we struggle with be done away began to possess me.

To see the obstacles in our path be removed, the breakthrough in whatever it is my husband.

I cried out diligently to the Lord for answers.

One day I was stirred to fast.

To abstain from the things that are actually a drain of life. I want to be filled with God’s life, not drained.

I began the fast with the intent of seeing a complete breakthrough for my husband.

At first, there were many questions about whether this thought had come from God or my religious past.

As I sought the Lord, peace came upon me that He was indeed the Author of this fast.

Day 1&2~

As we cry out to God to reveal what is needed for Jerome to be healed, He has been revealing demonic spirits of anxiety, hopelessness and unbelief that we needed to rebuke.

As each of those things left, my husband’s symptoms improved!

It was glorious!

Day 3&4~

I was broken completely of my own ability to find anything.

The word that came was to surrender. Surrender to what God said.

"Yes, I am the Lord your God ever since the land of Egypt, and you shall know no other God but me; for there is no Savior besides Me." Hosea 13:4

The kingdom of God is order. Let all things come into order.

I had the most glorious visitation of God!!

For hours: praise, rejoicing, declaration, new revelation, and confidence filled me, poured out of me, and I now Know what perfect peace is!!

Day 5~

We had had no sleep for so many days. God gave me strength and focus to drive my husband to town, and to walk with him through the whole doctor’s office journey.

I saw an angel of God with us in the room standing guard, and we were not to fear.

We went grocery shopping, and my body wanted to seize up as I beheld wall to wall, floor to ceiling: food!

That was intense!! So much available to feed the soul!

The pressure of humanity and soul activity REALLY struck me while we were in town.

It made me more sure that I want to be washed of the way my natural, carnal soul thinks and responds.

Day 6~

Began with a very clear revelation about the difference between soul and spirit, and the tree of Knowledge of good and evil versus the tree of Life.

Day 7~

My daughter needed my help with a project that typically takes a lot of energy and strength. Somehow as we worked, God filled me with energy and enough strength that I got to ride my horse with her. Such a joy!

Day 8~

I was totally exhausted, and drained. Feeling over it. The opposite of the day before.

I didn't think I could continue, but felt strongly to press in for a few more days.

I had the thought that I could push through with my own determination–but what would that profit?

Joy Unspeakable!! by A.P.

 Life has been and is being transformed!

This whole season has been one of God going deeper.

In my husband, Jerome, in our kids–and it is continuing.

My husband has been fighting for his life–and I’ve been fighting for it as well.

Last fall, Jerome had a strange episode in his body on the side of the road on a dark, rainy night. He called me, and the kids and I prayed for him. God healed him instantly!! 💕

A few nights later, he was feeling strange again. So we gathered as a family to pray for healing and stand against the enemy.

God poured out on us in a powerful, powerful way!! He gave us a new heart that night.

The earthly, family birthright done away with, and the inheritance of love, care, compassion, and softness sprung forth new!

A few nights ago, he was under attack again. We talked about going to the ER.

But when we sought the Lord’s guidance in it, God didn’t give us a release to go to that. Instead, we had to pray to be delivered from fear.

I wanted to take him to the best ER I know right now: fellow believers who could pray with us.

In the midst of all this, the Lord was dealing with me about my limitations.

He showed me that I am not able to fully access what God wants to release in me because I need baptized in the Holy Spirit.

Reading through Acts, everyone who believed God was limited in confidence and boldness until they received the Baptism of the Spirit. From then on, the disciples had great rejoicing, boldness, confidence and signs and wonders.

I have been devouring this book over and over and weeping as I see the lack in my own life.

The following morning we did go to meet up with fellow believers.

After such a rough night, we were indeed broken and in need. Jerome received ministry right away and received strength, energy, and nourishment, and even got to do some work there to help out.

Those of us in pursuit of music practiced a lot together. It was so, so wonderful to finally get to spend some time with certain believers!

As we all talked together, God began to touch on some of the very things I have been pondering and seeking for. I told the Lord I am ready for the Baptism. God showed me what it meant, and what that Baptism would require.

The end of my anger, the end of my fear, the end of my self-will, the end of my resistance to God…giving it ALL.

I began to weep and weep. Then a fellow believer began to pray for me, and I felt my prayer deepen to give it ALL.

Then it changed, and joy unspeakable filled me!!!

Clarity, thankfulness, new tongues, peace, stillness, and electricity tingling through my body! This went on and on! I lost track of all time!

I could hear others being touched as well. Then someone prayed for Jerome, and like a flash, I knew!

My husband, who had been so affected by his dad dying years ago–he was not Fatherless!!!

I was on my feet, his hands in mine in an instant, declaring this beautiful revelation!

We stood together with hands entwined overhead as God filled him full to overflowing.

In my heart, I saw a vision of a door open above his head, and beams, even rivers of light flowing into him, filling Jerome from his toes all the way up till it was bubbling out of his head.

We stood there swaying in the aftermath of God’s outpouring as some of the sisters in Christ sang a beautiful song!!!

Since then, I have so much joy!

So much hunger for the Lord, so much love for being in prayer and song and the word and worship and with my family!

I have also been earnestly seeking for how to give this to others! This isn't just for me, but to be released to anyone and everyone in need! 💕💕💕

I’ve wept tears of amazement to watch my kids hunger, desire God and change!

To see them soften towards each other. To see them laying hands on their dad, Jerome, and ministering to him when he is in need.

Watching joy and peace take the place of frustration and anxiety is joy unspeakable! 💕